Okay...approximately 14 hours later I am able to tell the story without crying. I do have to say that I understand grief now! I always have said that I have been fortunate enough to not have gone through anything horrible yet in my life (no deaths of loves ones; healthy pregnancies; etc....). But, now, now I can identify with others who have experienced a loss of some kind. Not that Taryn has been lost...but, when this went down the way it did...well, I don't want to compare it to anything horrible because if I do, inevitably I will get the response that whatever I compared it too is nothing like our situation!
So, that being said...let me just build up the drama of what happened yesterday...and then I will move on!
The call happened while I was at MY birthday lunch with 6 of my dearest friends...none of whom have adopted, understand the "drama" of the referral, etc... the phone rings...I get emotionally excited. They get the camera's out to capture the moment...then I am told the horrible news! The call lasts approx 10 minutes with me sobbing the whole time and my poor friends, who don't really understand what is happening, looking on and feeling terribly uncomfortable! Then, to make it even better...the Mexican waiters bring out the sombrero, fried ice cream, and start singing "Feliz Coup-li-an-ous..." ( I really don't know how to sing "Happy Bday" in Spanish...so just work with me on the translation!) CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE!!!! And then, to top off the event...the waiters take my picture...crying, with the sombrero and ice cream in front of me (not to mention the barely touched Mexican food! And, those who know me know how I love my Mexican food!). So, I had one of my friends escort me out of the restaurant shortly after that with my un-opened gifts, still crying, and extremely humiliated!
Now...now, can you see why surely I KNOW I am being punked! It was like a really bad movie! Seriously people!
Hopefully, later on today or tomorrow I will have a plausible explanation for everyone as to exactly why this happened...as for now...I just thought the above story was better than the previous tearful one! Go ahead, it is okay to laugh! Someday I will! Hey, it makes me smile thinking about the irony of it all...but laugh? Not yet...hopefully soon!
Sidebar: Thank you SO MUCH for all of the prayers and encouragement I have received both on this site, face book and my email. I may not have been answering the phone...but I could feel the prayers and I am grateful! Until next time....Rebecca
P.S. I am not trying to leave Steve out of this...he was (and probably still is...) ticked off! He doesn't get all "weepy" and dramatic like me! He was soooooo mad though at all things China!
So, that being said...let me just build up the drama of what happened yesterday...and then I will move on!
The call happened while I was at MY birthday lunch with 6 of my dearest friends...none of whom have adopted, understand the "drama" of the referral, etc... the phone rings...I get emotionally excited. They get the camera's out to capture the moment...then I am told the horrible news! The call lasts approx 10 minutes with me sobbing the whole time and my poor friends, who don't really understand what is happening, looking on and feeling terribly uncomfortable! Then, to make it even better...the Mexican waiters bring out the sombrero, fried ice cream, and start singing "Feliz Coup-li-an-ous..." ( I really don't know how to sing "Happy Bday" in Spanish...so just work with me on the translation!) CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE!!!! And then, to top off the event...the waiters take my picture...crying, with the sombrero and ice cream in front of me (not to mention the barely touched Mexican food! And, those who know me know how I love my Mexican food!). So, I had one of my friends escort me out of the restaurant shortly after that with my un-opened gifts, still crying, and extremely humiliated!
Now...now, can you see why surely I KNOW I am being punked! It was like a really bad movie! Seriously people!
Hopefully, later on today or tomorrow I will have a plausible explanation for everyone as to exactly why this happened...as for now...I just thought the above story was better than the previous tearful one! Go ahead, it is okay to laugh! Someday I will! Hey, it makes me smile thinking about the irony of it all...but laugh? Not yet...hopefully soon!
Sidebar: Thank you SO MUCH for all of the prayers and encouragement I have received both on this site, face book and my email. I may not have been answering the phone...but I could feel the prayers and I am grateful! Until next time....Rebecca
P.S. I am not trying to leave Steve out of this...he was (and probably still is...) ticked off! He doesn't get all "weepy" and dramatic like me! He was soooooo mad though at all things China!
I know how disappointing all of this is, so feel free to cry on my poncho.
ReplyDeleteI got the same 'there is no referral for you' phone call five years ago and even now still get a sick feeling in my stomach when I think about it. My amazing daughter is now almost 7. I look at her and know that those extra two months of agony I had to wait were well worth it. I know it doesn't make you feel better now but know that one day you may be thankful for they way it all worked out.
ReplyDeleteJust remember this is all part of God's plan for you! He has the perfect child picked for you and you will see her face at the perfect time. You will look back and see His hand in all of this.
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